I'm writing this at 2.45 pm on a Friday. I am also drinking a beer. You may think 'Wow I wish I was doing that!', but you really don't, and that's because I am unemployed.
I moved to London around 6 weeks ago, leaving my bar job in Oxford searching for the streets that are lined with gold. I still believe these streets exist. I'm sure they are the most wonderful streets full of boutiques, wine bars and easy women but to gain access to this world you have to fit the right profile. You are never really told what the specific profile is but all I know is that I don't fit.
I know this because I received an email today telling me just this fact. It was from a company that I interviewed for yesterday for a job that I actually wanted which has been something of a rarity of late. The interview was a traditional affair (one-on-one in an office where I answered questions that were asked of me). I thought it went well. I was confident. But I didn't fit their profile. It's a setback and to be honest I'm gutted but I just wish I knew why I didn't fit? I think it was my red hair...........
Although today has been a setback, I feel like I am getting closer to my dream of a soul-destroying job that barely covers my out-goings and all I dream about is the day I will finally build up the courage to kill myself. I think I'm getting closer as I'm getting passed the DREADED assessment days. Now these HR wankfests really are the biggest waste of time I have ever had to endure. Questions like : 'Name someone who is an inspiration to you' are followed by '..and now give two reasons why they shouldn't be thrown out of the hot air balloon that we are all in!'. HOT AIR BALLOON? What the fuck are you on about? The guy asking us these 'probing' questions looked so bored I almost felt sorry for him but I couldn't think about for that too long as it was my turn to defend John Lennon's right of life (a certain irony there was lost on everyone else doing this day with me).
So a bit of a shit day but you have to stay optimistic.
At least my inspirational person wasn't Lady Gaga like someone else said!
And that was only because someone else had taken Barack Obama......
I don't know.
